Al: August 2010

30.8.10

For You

Isaiah 40:28-31
"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The L-rd is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the L-rd will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. "

When I first read the above passage this morning I was encouraged. The L-rd is all of that and more. However, after I read it a few times I started to question how "those who hope in the L-rd will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." I have a head understanding that the L-rd gives strength to the weary, but at the moment I don't understand what that really looks like. One of my questions is when will their strength be renewed? How long must we wait? Are we to be taken until we are at the end of ourselves in what we can bear on our own? Does the L-rd take us to a place of brokenness and dependence on Him that if He doesn't show up we will be defeated? Is that when He gives the endurance and strength that this passage declares? I don't know. Perhaps the fact that I haven't run away, or fallen into an inescapable despair is some of what the passage is talking about. Where is Joy though? I don't think it is far off though it is hidden for the moment.

Psalm 103
"Bless the Lord, O my soul,
and all that is within me,
bless his holy name!
2 Bless the Lord, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits,
3 who forgives all your iniquity,
who heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit,
who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,
5 who satisfies you with good
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

6 The Lord works righteousness
and justice for all who are oppressed.
7 He made known his ways to Moses,
his acts to the people of Israel.
8 The Lord is merciful and gracious,
slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.
9 He will not always chide,
nor will he keep his anger forever.
10 He does not deal with us according to our sins,
nor repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far does he remove our transgressions from us.
13 As a father shows compassion to his children,
so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear him.
14 For he knows our frame; [1]
he remembers that we are dust.

15 As for man, his days are like grass;
he flourishes like a flower of the field;
16 for the wind passes over it, and it is gone,
and its place knows it no more.
17 But the steadfast love of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear him,
and his righteousness to children's children,
18 to those who keep his covenant
and remember to do his commandments.
19 The Lord has established his throne in the heavens,
and his kingdom rules over all.

20 Bless the Lord, O you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his word,
obeying the voice of his word!
21 Bless the Lord, all his hosts,
his ministers, who do his will!
22 Bless the Lord, all his works,
in all places of his dominion.
Bless the Lord, O my soul! "

27.8.10

As I look out of the windows surrounding my desk I am immediately reminded of a crisp fall morning. Maybe this feeling arises due to the air conditioning being so low resulting in me wearing my lite sweater, or, perhaps, my readiness for the new season is manufacturing wishful thinking. The fact is, the temperatures have been falling. Nightly lows have been in the 50's! That is wonderful news. Autumn begins 4 weeks from yesterday. I am ready for the change which is good because more than one change of season is coming.

I am also feeling inspired. Now to act on those feelings...

18.8.10

Praise the L-rd. That my mind is racing in a hundred and forty nine different directions.
Praise the L-rd. For His redemption.
Praise the L-rd. That I feel so distant.
Praise the L-rd. For His weapons.
Praise the L-rd. That despite talking with friends these feelings aren't going away. They are stronger than before.
Praise the L-rd. For wanting and giving relationship. For our relationship.
Praise the L-rd. For showing me the ways I have kept people from having no other choice but to trust in Him.
Praise the L-rd. For friends.
Praise the L-rd. That I am bloated and that it is getting better.
Praise the L-rd. That I am rarely hungry.
Praise the L-rd. That I am starting to notice my hunger.
Praise the L-rd. That work is getting better.
Praise the L-rd. That I know myself so much better yet I feel as though I can't fully be that Allison (under construction)
Praise the L-rd. For His love.
Praise the L-rd. For revealing to me that I have been obedient to my detriment.
Praise the L-rd. For His creation.
Praise the L-rd. That I still answering the phone.
Praise the L-rd. For His Adventure.
Praise the L-rd. For the heat.
Praise the L-rd. For family.
Praise the L-rd. For sadness.
Praise the L-rd. I don't have to look like anything anyone has ever seen.
Praise the L-rd. For trials.
Praise the L-rd. For His people.
Praise the L-rd. For pain.
Praise the L-rd. For authority.
Praise the L-rd. That I can't take pain away from the people I love.
Praise the L-rd. For time.
Praise the L-rd. For His provision.
Praise the L-rd. For rest.
Praise the L-rd. For season changes.
Praise the L-rd. For His beauty.
Praise the L-rd. For the journey.
Praise the L-rd. For Himself.
Praise the L-rd. For growth.
Praise the L-rd. For Love.
Praise the L-rd. I will be 25 in a day less than a month.

Praise the L-rd.