I don't know everything. I want to. I try to. I can't. In fact, I know little. Why do I think I need to know everything, and be able to answer every question? No one knows the future. We don't even know an hour from now, or even two minutes from now. I feel the weight of all of my questions. I try to take them all on at once. Confusion and a sense of helplessness overwhelms. I am learning, I hope, I don't have to have the answers. Perhpas someday I will be able to answer more of them than I am able to at this moment.

However, it is at this very moment I am deciding not be weighed down and ask the Lord to "examine me, and know my heart; test me, and know my thoughts. See if there is in me any hurtful way, and lead me along the eternal way" (ps. 139.23-24) and trust "ADONAI will fulfill His purpose for me. Your grace ADONAI, continues forever. Don't Abandon the work of Your hands!". (ps. 138.8)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b1bSlS6OWTs
Come Thou Fount by Sufjan Stevens

The Shelter a.k.a. L'Abri

I was talking to my uncle at our family Christmas get together, and he started talking about something that sounded interesting, inviting, and right up my alley. Francis Schaeffer, a name I was not familiar with at the time, started L'Abri in 1955 in Switzerland where he and his family were living at the time.

After talking with him about it I started researching L'Abri. There are 11 locations worldwide, 2 of which are in the US. There are locations in England, Germany, Holland, Australia, a few other countries one of them being, can you guess? Canada! British Columbia, Canada no less!

I'm going! I sent them my deposit and plan on being there for the 2 month summer session. Half (4 hours) of the work day will be spent working doing stuff such as cooking, gardening, laundry, and other work to help keep up the property. The other half of the day will be spent listening to lectures, studying, etc. There will be time for discussion over meals and during other times. I am extremely excited!!

http://labri.org/canada/index.html This is the link. Check it out if you feel like it. The above pictures are from this site, and there are a lot more. The property is on an island about a 20 minute ferry ride from Vancouver. Absolutely beautiful from the pictures I've seen. A great place to take pictures with my new camera. :)

I didn't see this coming. I am really glad this is what I am going to be doing.

"The art that I create now is of a whole new realm. My purpose is not to create an escape, but to create expression that grounds me and the audience into our true existence, one that is rooted in the earth, and consequently, in our purpose here. We need to get out of ourselves, but not into someone or something else. We need to see the beauty of this world, the beauty of challenge and hardship and the Divine Providence that is happening every moment. It’s all blessing. We are living the good life."

Taken from Making Dignity My Art by Judy Ammar

http://www.chabad.org/theJewishWoman/article_cdo/aid/1408257/jewish/Making-Dignity-My-Art.htm